more reasons why i'm stupid.

[soulhorse]

Whatever. Forget it. Last night was stupid. I'm just impatient.

I'm not going to try anymore. No sense in pursuing something that doesn't want to be pursued. Why put so much effort into something that won't have any return?

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i wish my name was lola...

[xstarsnmyeyesx.livejournal.com]

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh holy shit i know exactly what you mean!!!! oh my christ!! i finally realized myself that i needed to have the "i don't effin care" attitude. (not the bad "i don't effin care" attitude though. though one that makes thngs a little better!!) caring about what was happening or even better not happening was just driving me insane and making me extrememly depressed. saying to myself i don't care and whatever happens happens makes me feel better about the situation. now i just laugh instead of cry and it's so much better. and instead of being really nice to this person and wasting my time seeing if things would go any further i decided to become a little more distant and not try at all. it's so much easier now. i'm not saying that i don't have feelings for this person anymore cuz i do but i'm moving on and instead of staying at home all night waiting till he calls i say eff it and i make as many plans with friends and try to have as much fun as possible. we are way too young to have these people making us feel like shit because all we want is them and they don't want us or whatever. yeah so i'm sorry i just totally rambled like crazy... too much caffeine today!! hah!! <3

Re: i wish my name was lola...

[http://users.livejournal.com/_acerbusangelus/]

Haha, I sooo know what you mean. That's exactly what I'm going through. I'm sick of analyzing every little thing he says, trying to figure out if there was some hint of him wanting me in it. I'm sick of waiting around for him, I'm sick of dropping everything for him knowing he'd never do the same for me, I'm sick of being depressed every time he blows me off, I'm sick of being nothing to someone who is so much to me, I'm sick of being so emotionally invested in someone who really doesn't give a fuck. So I'm just gonna kick back and wait my turn. We all need to stop wasting our time with people who aren't worth our time or, even worse, don't want our time. It's so hard to accept, but if he really wants me, he'll let me know. And if not, there's really nothing I can do about. I need to learn to be patient, because if it's not him...there has to be someone else, right? I just have to let go and do things for ME for a while.

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Re: i wish my name was lola...

[xstarsnmyeyesx.livejournal.com]

ex-friggen-actly!!!! <3

Re: i wish my name was lola...

[http://users.livejournal.com/_acerbusangelus/]

We rock. Haha. <33

xoxo